oh god! the "he hasn't moved for twenty seconds and therefore may be "cot dead" so for fuck's sake panic" alarm went off earlier. We booted up the stairs, in fact my legs got there miles bfore body and I hauled myself around the bannister. §I turned the light on full, and prodded henry as hard as i felt reasonable. he screwed up his eyes and seemed disgruntled.... like he knew what that really meant.
He was fine, and i disappeared off to puke. Which i did.
No-one tells you that the depth at which you love your baby is such that you can droip astone into the well and never hear th esplash.
It;'s by some distance the scariest thing that's ever happened to me and has ultimatelt ruined m night